16 May 2014

Just wash my car and my mood bring me here to write blog,

No why..I just feeling strong seriously.

I was sitting alone and think about what my plan for this one month holiday

I know time is limited for me,

I'm busying for my dance competition on this Sunday.

and we all are new without any competition experience.

but atleast we tried. 

We practice very hard everyday, every single day

we did not have studio to practice

no mirror 

no big place 

only thing we can do other than practice at home are rented from outside.

which RM50 per hour. It's costly but I know it;s worth.

But I was quite angry that thing I received this morning

Ya, you a business women who open studio. 

I was super manners that request and ask about rented for tonight.

How ''manners'' you are? You a business women but you're a teacher too.

Don't you know manners? 

Is ok without any studio for us to practice

we can do it our own

Ya, I don't have any expect for this competition.

I don't care how the result will be. 

even we get the last, but I tried! I tried my best.

Two more days for us, 

Guys, prove it to people who look down on us before.

I will let you, you ,and you who said about me before.

''Jeniffer, you dance? Haha..Laugh die me''

ya, I dance. I dance for my own, but not for you. 

I don't care how old am I when I'm success, 50? 60 or 80 years old. I will do it before I die! 

Remembered this, your laugh make me stronger!

Arrogance make you behind! 

Thanks my only teacher who support us always 

She's busy but still spend her time for us.

Appreciate..

Appreciate from heart ..seriously

Thanks, teacher Elaine :') 
Happy Teacher Day :)

I will never ever give up on dance no matter what ..

Give me some time.

I think alot alot in this few days.

What can I do..How do I start my plan?

Yea, I know it takes alot money and time

but is ok.

a step make me get closer to my dream

Namewee recently  post his new song.

I'm awake after listen it.

How stupid a person be a softhearted person

No.

I will never be that stupid to treat people who doesn't care about me at all

Doesn't worth it

Society changed, 

I need to changed too.

If dislike what I do, you may leave.

I live because of myself, because of people who love me.but not you :) 

如果有人利用你的柔软攻击你，

利用你的善良欺负你，

利用你的宽容践踏你，请不要哭泣。

你的柔软善良宽容是你值得拥有更好生活的资本，

也是你立于这世界真实的支撑。

人活着不是为了证明苦难，而是亲历过黑暗才配拥有光明。

不要为不值得的人浪费你宝贵的泪水，要为爱你的人保留你最好的微笑。

面对生活请记得保持微笑，就算生活用泪水给你回报。

Keep smiling because one day life will get tired of upsetting you.

6.May.2014

A good and stupid lesson I gave to myself today. Ok...

Nothing can killed me, just make me Stronger !

April, May 2014

Finally, I came here again.
I was busy like hell in this 2 month..
Preparing for my final exam next monday and I'm going have crazy month after this!
and practice for dance competition on 18th May.
Crazy...that's really crazy but I love it.
Less time to sleep and sometimes even no. It's tired, but when doing something you really like, that's worth.
Really worth! 

My baby meat on body was gain much more because I just skip my daily workout for 1 month.
What the hell...this is crazy...crazy ever! 
I seriously unbearable myself so much.

Ok..talk about what's going on in this 2 month.
Hehe...I just busying preparing birthday present for Pooi Yan.
Not that expensive but seriously, it make me headache..
Stupid video maker keep no responding and I have to remake and remake...
By the way, I make it finally :D
going to show her tomorrow. Hmm..hope she like it.

So...
Yeah..I join dance workshop on 21st of April at Freedom Dance Studio
OMG! This workshop just killed me. 
My leg and hand muscle pain for few days.
But seriously, it paid off!
And after the dance sharing season by all the Malaysia dancer,
I have  a planning!
I gonna start save money and go to Japan for joining their dancing class..even 1 classes!
Dancing make my life always!

Oh!
I just read an article about what Obama said to her daughter..
that's great,
it just wake me up!
Here the quote : 

1.We live in a capitalistic society in which everyone’s trying to sell us something. Everyone’s looking out for themselves in one way or another, and you need to do the same. Stop putting yourself out because you’re too shy to say no.

2. People get offended about the strangest things. Take Kendrick Lamar’s now-infamous verse on “Control” this summer: he called out a list of a dozen rappers he thinks he’s better than (and he’s right)。 The internet went crazy, and rappers all over the industry rushed to their mics to record a response. The thing is, all K-Dot said is he’s the best rapper. Everyone took it personally, and that’s exactly what he was going for. The lesson to learn from this is that not everything is about you, and if you’re easily upset, someone will use that to their advantage.

This is just part of the quote he said. Ok, I gonna change myself..seriously. How I feel people selfishness and fake.I feel that, yea... I feel SHIT to them when people selfishness for graded or their own good. Is ok for them, but yea, I'm not. Why people just can't sharing? If you only think about yourself, you’ll soon find yourself by yourself. Stop for a minute and think about how your actions affect other people – did you take the last cup of coffee from the break room? Refill it! Do you live with others? Don’t drink out the milk carton. We share this world 100% of the time, so every action you take can affect other people.I love the feeling when people are happy because of me, I feel proud of myself. That's all. As what I always said, 
is ok how other laughed and look down on you, things is you the one not looking down yourself. Just prove them WRONG! 

Next two week gonna start my plan for my 1 month holiday. A big plan for me, ofcourse, I will kill myself from workout and , I'm going alone to find dog around my house area and buy them dog food and water too :) 

31.3.2014

外婆，我想你了。

至给一位朋友

至给一位朋友

朋友，
累了吗？
伤了吗？
痛了吗？

从出生认识你到现在，21 年了
我可说是世界上最了解你的人
你的优，你的贬，我都懂

从你对家人开始说起
你在家或许让家人觉得你是个很难了解的人
因为你从不爱多说，
对家人的脾气也很不好
你对着电视和电话的时间比对家人来得多
你的外表总是显出你不关心，不在乎
可是，那是真的吗？
你看见姐姐有了男朋友，你会偷偷的流泪
你看见妹妹交了坏朋友，你会生气
你看见妈妈伤心难过，你自己会躲在房间哭泣
你常和爸爸吵架，可是心里的痛只有你自己知道
你会偷偷把钱放进妈妈钱包了，让她有钱去买东西
你会以辅导员的身份和妹妹说道理
对，你在家看起来很酷，很凶，可是我知道你的心永远都是在家人这
因为你知道除了自己，家人就是你的知己

可是，失败的是，你的心太弱了
对，你看起来很坚强
从不会在朋友面前哭
从不会在朋友面前显得自己很弱
受伤了也从不会说
你把朋友放得比自己重要
对，别人会说你是笨蛋，应该对自己好一点，朋友不会一辈子陪着你
这些大道理你都知道，可是你的心却不能办到
朋友有感情事，你一话不说的会去找她，关心她 ，
对，当时她需要你，当然会让你陪，可是呢？
当事情解决后，你得到的事什么？　你只是得到一句敷衍的‘谢谢’
你可以因为朋友伤心而半夜不睡觉就为了等

你可以把自己不舍得买的东西送给朋友　
你也可以花一整天的时间弄小礼物给朋友
值得吗？　对，值得，因为她是你好朋友　
朋友可以为了学业而欺骗你
朋友可以为了要赢而伤害你
朋友可以为了利益而利用你
朋友可以背叛你
不管你对她再好再真心，伤心的最后还是你
因为，　认真，你最输
什么是好朋友？
好朋友不是认识多年，了解对方的，谈得来的就是好朋友？
可是你不是
你觉得一个关心你，就算那一点点的关心，你也会觉得自己被关心了
就把她当好朋友
笨蛋，
记得，社会是残忍的
当你有利用价值是，别人就会想起你
可是当你什么都不是时，你觉得你能为她做什么？
对你而言，朋友就是应该尽心尽力
就好想家人一样对待
可是请你记得，不是每一个人都是这样

朋友，
做自己好吗？　
不要因为害怕别人不喜欢你这样那样，而把真正的自己隐藏着
这样你会很累
他们不喜欢这样的你，就让他们离开
他们不是你的全部
学会当个　＇ｎｏ　ｗｏｍｅｎ＇　好吗？　
拒绝并不是什么伤害别人的事情

不要静静的忍着
我知道很多时候，你不是真正的快乐，
你的笑只是你穿的保护色

做个自己想做的事情
不要管太多

Memories

Since I back from my holiday trip..
2 weeks left for my holiday. It should be the time for me to sleep and eat well.
Yea..I eat very well..should be super well..that's why I  put on so much weight..(will be diet after this)
but I didn't sleep well...Busy this and that..and insomnia some more...oh God..

So I took few day to renovate my room.
look so damn fresh now! even it still look messy .
Then I found some childhood thing..I can't stop laughing when I saw all this.

1) 

YoYo

I know this for boy..but I kinda like to play this!

I bought it from...Toy Story or Toy City ..forgotten 

My 2 favorite yoyo and I still keep it nicely :D

2)

My Naruto game card

I love naruto game and movie..

but I only interested to Kakashi! ( The 1st card in the photo)

He look so damn handsome and a good character

I just can't stop playing ps2 and watch Naruto movie with my younger sister!

3) 

Pokemon sticker collection!

I bought a lot a lot when I'm form1 

I will rush to the shop bought all sticker after school

but still left few :( 

Pokemon lover always 

but now not really since I getting older.

but he always look cute!

4) 

Antique Gameboy!

I think everyone mostly have this? maybe?.....

It still work but with battery 

I love mario game :D

5) 

My form1 folio..

Can u find the mistake?

this a malay word.

''Bertanggungjawab'' and I wrote...''Bertanggungjaeab''! 

My awesome malay when form 1.

I still wondering..

why I can't thank to our principal in folio?

6) 

Amulet?

but this for exam

My younger sis just draw me this for bringing good luck for my SPM in year 2010

how sweet?!

crazy sis ever

7) 

My standard 3 spectacle

my first spec in life!

Since it look round, so I call it doraemon spec 

It suit me for my round face too.

so everyone keep call me fatty when I wear this..

should be cute, ok? 

upgraded after a few year

hahaha.

i seriously can't use this kind of spec..

too dangerous for me

I a boy when I small until I form 4 then only I started look like a 'girl' 

so ... I stop used this..I can't stand for it too .

that's look kinda weird to me

8) 

My first phone in life!

Nokia 1600 the best handphone 

It still function now and I used this since... I'm 12!

long long time ago!

I can't leave without it when I first couple with a long long distance love

Just send atleast 300 message in a day.

but now..

I a samsung fans lol

9) 

My standard 2 books of remembrance

...how come I wrote this kind of things..

seriously a money lover!

you will understand if you know chinese..

and my friend scared to paid money

so she just simply write to me and because she rush for tuition class 

oh god..

i just show her this today

she can't stop laughing too

we same school from standard 3 to form 5

my very old friend!

10) 

Ok..

My super awesome housework company

Yo Xuan Sendirian Berhad

hahaha

that's why I good in cleaning thing

I do it since I was small

and everything have to paid 

I love business 

money..too

I can't stand it ..haha

my resit..

and sign by my long term customer

my mum!

11)

My Mini drum bought from Beijing, China

My daddy just keep said I was childish enough.

but ..I love something relevant to music!

That's look cool what!

This just part of it.

What a memorable thing in life

I hope the techno now will be like the past

everyone still contact by face to face

is out dated and should always look at the future

but sometimes things and memories past was best thing in my life compared to now

7 March 2014

I'm failed today...